in the words of bob dylan – that pretty much sums things up these days. so much going on, and more space in my mind that at any point in recent history that i can remember. only a little time to write.
this is, in fact, yesterday’s contribution.
there are so many things i want to write about. like my secret belief that if you hold your face really close to the face of a sleeping baby and breath in the air that they exhale, it is like drinking from the fountain of youth. or that i had no idea how physically demanding this job was going to be. or that i never really enjoyed anything about halloween until this year, when my daughter dressed up as Mary Poppins.
And there are my worries. About money. About my eldest daughter learning (or not) how to read. About my middle child not eating.
And then, of course, there are all the things I am learning. Like the stuff I learned last week when, Charlotte had to stay home because she was ill and i had to set aside all of my expectations for that day and when I did make that choice to not be about me and to be more about what the kids needed and what their pace should be, all of a sudden, things just went smoothly. It was raining all day. We were all inside. Some of us were sick. And still we managed to have a perfectly pleasant afternoon. And it really had to begin with me giving up my ambition.
And then there is Arden. And my concerns that i can’t really remember what she looked like when she was a new born. And how much I have enjoyed watching her body uncoil from its tiny springloaded infant state. And how she has learned to smile and stick her fingers in her mouth. And how much stronger her legs seem now than even just a week ago. And how alert she has become. And how it seems to have all happened right before my eyes and I wonder if I will ever be able to leave her behind when this journey inevitably comes to a close…
So much to write about.
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